Life's beautiful❤

Can't feel anything...

2009-09-08T13:42:00.000+08:00

Hello dear blog, just a quick one and I'll go back to studying. I am feeling pretty emotionless... I can't even talk to my friends the way I used to. And work...does not seem so daunting anymore. I actually want to do it. Doing work makes me feel better... At least I can immerse myself in it, and have something to keep me happy. :)

Okay, my blogger is screwed I can't add colour or anything to my fonts. Nevermind.

Oh, I love my friends. When they're there, it makes life better. (: <3

Thanks LJ for caring, and pooh for just being there for piglet. :)

Oh... I love this song... Keep singing it or humming it everywhere I go. ^^ It's called The Prayer and it's from the movie Quest for Camelot. The lyrics are beautiful.

I pray you'll be our eyes,
and watch us where we go.
And help us to be wise,
in times when we don't know.
Let this be our prayer,
as we go our way.
Lead us to a place,
guide us with your grace,
to a place where we'll be safe.

I wish I had it in my phone...

Bye,
Rah.

):

2009-09-07T11:09:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, I feel sad today. He messaged me just before...and he left me a sweet online msg. Why couldn't I have been awake?

I woke up at 3:27am and saw the two messages...I couldn't sleep after.. So many thoughts were in my mind. I prayed...

I wish I could just hug you in my arms right now...

God bless,

Rah.

I want to be there, but I guess I'll leave you some time alone for now.

I'm BacK(:

2009-09-06T14:24:00.001+08:00

I just felt like blogging. Well I guess I have work to do. Problem is, I am stuckkk. Always stuck. I swear chemistry is the bane of my life right now. But yeah gotta keep trying! :)

Hmm I guess I have a lot of work to do... especially since I am really not good at anything. I guess I have to try and make life better. Jia you rahrah don't give up :] Hmm and yes I think I don't have the energy to keep thinking and wishing and hoping that things would change. I guess I will carry on with my life the way it is supposed to carry on... Someday I'll feel like my life is better. Hoping. :)

I enjoyed every moment with you. And I'll still be there for you when you need a shoulder to cry on, or just to lean on. But I guess that I've finally understood. I guess I wanna get you off my mind...for now... I don't know but I think I'll fall into my past...I've never felt this way in a looong time. I wanna let others see the real me but now I don't think I can. I've lost a part of me recently... But I'll make it through. ^^

Ahhhhhhhhhh I have the sudden urge to play FINAL FANTASY VII hahaha was checking out some stuff and suddenly remembered it! I've never tried playing on my own, just saw my brothers playing. I think I liked FFVII the best, heh. ^-^ I wanna get the PC version haha cuz I don't have a psp anymore. :( Oh well! EXAMS ARE COMING! Haha. Why am I even talking about this. Hmm my brother said Final Fantasy Dissidia is damn cool haha you can play as cloud, sephiroth, tidus etc haha O.O Okay okay. Let's stop. :p Hmmmmmmmsssss okay I guess I will get back to my work now. xoxo!

Rah ❤

Poofy (:

2009-04-18T10:27:00.007+08:00

Hi guys it's been a long time since i last updated!! Kay I've been really busy and plain lazy=) Kay so school's been okay:) ppl there are really nice and funny at times:D but school work's been mounting...=/ oh well. That's JC life for you. Hmm ytd was QSS Speechday. I thought it would bring back nice memories... but well it didn't really...=/ quite disappointing... After the prize presentation went to the hawker with sean:) Smth happened which caused him to lose appetite...sorry:( I'll throw away the paper and make a new one okay:) With only ur name on it:) Well after that we talked alot and settled things=) lalala... hmm... the world is so nice^^ oh i wanna meet up with my friends soon:) miss u guys:) later i am meeting my date^^ although i meet him really oftennnn;) haha. hmm when will he update his blog=/ think it is dead alr like mine hahahaahaaaaa.. chatting with him on the phone now he's playing my psp ^^ naughty boy he tricked me again lol so cute:D oh anyway my cca is super slack hahahaahhaaaa;) hmmmmzzzzzz :) dunno what to type le... ilutiab hahaha:D oh now he is angry...:( now okay le oh and i finally made a good decision sorry it had to take that long... We really shouldn't have anything to do with each other esp if u were unhappy...sorry for not being sensitive to your feelings.:( I love u and only u forever:D

BYE!

2009-02-06T20:45:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone! Okay i decided to use the com after a loooong while. :) My sis is out now so yeeah im alone oh am planning to do some sewing after this^^ Okay now let's talk a bit about sch shall we...

Okay so had 5 days of orientation already and... it was great fun!:DD Okay things like mass dancing was really fun hahahaaa everyone was really sporting!:D Oh i even got picked out to dance on stage today wahahahaa i like the bangra dance it is sooo fun fun!^^

Hmmm... My index group: 21!! The facils were all really nice... Heidi, Charmaine and Joshua:) Lol still rmb the cheer: Nananananana nananananana... IG21, yeah! IG21, yeah! IG21, whoooo! Hahahaha:p Okok oh we played lots of fun games some were wet!!! lol:) Ohoh and embarrassing too hahahaa... Better not write too much here...=/ Oh we won many of the games even the telematch!!! :D :D Oh and my house: DIONYSUS! Hahaha god of wine and merriment lol. Hmm wonder how the finale night tmr will go...

Ohoh. Ytd went Dragonboating really fun but I got sunburnt! Wa:( Now looked quite tanned hahaha ehh not bad ;) Healthy tan. Haha. Hmm... Wa a lot to say but lazy to recall or type:p ^^

Oh my class is... BCM!!! (Mostly E only 3 Ls) 1T27!!!:D Hmm everyone seems really nice there^^ And yeah we're the only class with twins:p Hahaha... Hmm I wonder what CCA to join... :) Was a lil' worried about commitment but ah well must have a balance. Anyway, CCA is an integral part of JC life... ;) Oh and my old friend is in my class hahaha yay^^

Kay so overall... CJC rocks;) (even though there are only 4 from qss haha... me, sis, meita, nicholas tay:) )

Oh and will miss ppl from IG21!! :( Looking forward to forging closer relationships with ppl from 1T27! ^^

Oh brother gg to aus tmr...:( All the best!! :D Nvm big brother is there ;)

2009-01-19T13:08:00.002+08:00

I'm back. :)

Sorry for the loooooong period of not blogging. I just couldn't find the mood or motivation to blog. Kays well I've been having weird dreams the past few nights... Some were really scary, others were downright uncomfortable, some were nice. :) But omgggg something really cool happened it's really hard to believe. At the end of my dream this morning I was eating pizza which my sis gave me and that was really random and totally not in sync with the whole dream. Wait. Are dreams ever in sync? Haha. Kays yeah so it's just pizza. So what right? Not so simple. When I woke up and told my sis about how yummy it was and all (lol) , she paused, and then said that she dreamt that she was giving me pizza at my gramps. Hahaha how cool is that? ;D Weeeeeee so cool connecting through dreams:D Hope we can do that more often heheheh... Oh but I thank God dreams aren't reality. I don't know what I was thinking in that dream when I did something stupid... Regretted it right after. Thank God.

Life's not the only rollercoaster ride. Dreams are too. And it makes things alot worse when you attempt to decipher anything from them. Dreams aren't supposed to mean anything, right? Well maybe not in all cases.

Okay if you're expecting me to have an entire post about my results and everything, then sorry you'll be disappointed. Ohhs anyway I'm running late hahaha thank God I'm all ready to go. :P

Bye guys! Till next time and sorry for the short post. ♥

rabbbits!

2008-12-27T20:46:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone^^ Today was a pleasant day! Well except for in the morning... I had terrible cramps!!

I woke up at like 5 plus in the morning and it was really tormentinggg:( I tossed and turned for like more than 3 hours... drifting off to sleep then waking up again due to the pain for a few times:( Went to the toilet for three times though it was of no use... *sigh*=.= Then ate the miracle pill (lol) then it only took effect after like an hr =.=" after which I finally could rest! It was tiring... and painful. I even tried resting with my head on the bed while kneeling on the ground! @.@ Oh and the pain would spread to my legs! My sis doesn't get that just me:( Okay my thighs were aching really bad okayyy I wanted to cryyyy!!! :(((

Such is the torture I have to go through almost every month *sigh*... Sometimes I think guys are just really lucky. I think I need to eat the evening primrose oil. Stop forgetting rah!!!! *slaps* Okay sorry for the ranting here...

Okay well after went to collect the edusave award haha lucky I didn't go there right on time or else I would have to wait for so long... smart eh:D Dad and mum went too haha so did sean's :) Erm well it was kind of boring and well we all didn't talk much:( Well then mummy went to work and... daddy dah and I went to source for... :D

Rabbits!! ^^ heh!

Okay I saw a dwarf rabbit and it is simply adorable!! ^^ Heh it looked so small and cute:) And well why the sudden interest? Well I don't really know think dada influenced me.:) Hmm oh we've done our research on rabbits and how to care for them... Am I prepared for a commitment? I think so. :) okay but it was really pricey... ouch.:( I'll think about it first and look around elsewhere!!

Haha cute right? :D See the rabbit wants me:( Heh lol I am lame.

Oh ya then I didn't know it would be so coincidental or more like I didn't know I would see him there haha it was the right place, I knew but who knew I would walk past him haha:) And we stared at each other for a while... I think he was surprised to see me. Then I smiled at him and waved and he smiled back!! He was sitting on a chair and I just looked at him I don't know why then I thought, EH? Cannot be ba... so coincidental? Then he just turned and looked lol^^ Haha weird but it was cool:)

Okay byebye everyone I think I am going to do some sewing and other stuff maybe play games heh take care!:)

Love,
Rah♥

2008-12-24T13:36:00.002+08:00

REGULATIONS of this quiz is:
-People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by them.
-Tag 5 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.
-These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
-Continue this game by sending it to other people.
Tagged by: Farha

If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
1. I'd wish to be more confident of myself... (: The necklace is a first step^^
2. I'd wish for all those less fortunate than me to find the happiness like that of mine, that of family and friends.^^
3. I'd wish for the welfare and safety for those I love...

Hey... three wishes is definitely not enough!! I'd pray for moreeee!!:)

Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
Hmm. Haha I think I can say I'm pretty sure that I am real. I am as real as the feelings and emotions I have, like the hurt or happiness I'd feel. I think the greatest indication of reality is the emotions that you are put through. Well but sometimes you feel hurt in your dream too... like one I had last night of you shouting at me...Hah. But well emotions let me know I am real.

Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
Well... if we were to be afraid, then how would we live our life? What if we spent every day worrying when possibly the next day could be our last? Sure, I do think about what lies ahead of me and sometimes there are insecurities and such... Like, would the happiness last? Would I get hurt at the end of the day? But well I think I'd live everyday cherishing everything that I have, for each day is a gift from God himself:)

Would you change yourself for the person you love?
Well, it depends on what kind of change it is. If it is a change for the better, like patience, understanding, the learning of how to truly love a person, then why not? But well I think you should still stay true to yourself... I'm sure if he or she truly loves you he'd love you for who you are right? Not who you'll become. But well a relationship with someone you truly love is a journey of self-discovery in itself so change is inevitable.:)

Do you believe in Love?
Yes. Love is the most powerful and moving thing on this earth.^^ It goes past sweet feelings or butterflies in stomachs. It means truly caring and wanting to keep that person safe and never getting hurt... Love means protecting the person from any sort of harm. Sometimes it even means making sacrifices for the one you love. Sometimes it means you have to get hurt... But at the end of the day I guess it's worth it.

How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Wait... as in wait for him to love me back the way I do to him? I think I can only truly love someone when I've felt his love for me... If not I don't know if I have the courage to continue loving or waiting... Yes, I'm afraid of getting hurt. I guess I'm truly vulnerable inside. If it's the other sort of wait like he loves me but we can't be together as yet, I'd be prepared to wait as long as it takes for us to be together.

Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
LOL fa's answer is really cute ^^ Hmm. *thinking* Well not really. Well there are some things=/ :(... (private) but I try not to let them affect me too much. SMILE:)

Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
Hmm... Like? Well yes I guess... Not now no. I don't like anyone atm. :) I love someone. Do I get butterflies when I'm with him??? At times:) But well if you truly love someone you'll learn to be comfortable around him.

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
LOL fa's keeps referring to her dog... Yeah, sure, of course.

Who are currently most important people to you?
Erm... my family, i.e daddy, mummy, big bro, second bro, DADA!:D And of course my friends (EEYORE, pooh, tigger, pig, fafa:D) and you know who you are^^

Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
Erm, what do u mean fa? Haha noble fa? Erm let me think... well it's complicated.

Are you happy with your life?
Lol fa~ :D Yup I think I thank God for being so blessed to be born in such a wonderful family and to be born healthy:) And I'm grateful for the people around me who mould and shape my life and me and fill my life with ups and downs haha:P

Would you give your all in a relationship?
Cy is straight-forward in this one. Erm yes I would... but I'd try to be conscious of what is happening... But yes I'd try my best to make both of us happy^^ That's most important.

If you were to go on Mars to meet some friendly Martians, what would you bring along as a gift?
LOL Dairymilk choc??? Hahaha:D erm. Fa is this your own question? A dead dove? Hahaha=X kidding... hmm I'm the greatest gift I could find:P lol zzz...

Do you often wish there was something you could change?
=/... smile fa:) Erm not really. But a reconciliation would be nice. *hint* Slowly but surely...:)

What will you look at first when you first set eye on a girl/guy?
LOL aura??o.o Wow weird qn indeed... Erm physically? His face la duh where else?o.o

If your lover betrayed you, what will be your reaction?
I'd be shocked... and well... cry my heart out... And then the healing process begins I guess...

2008-12-21T12:38:00.003+08:00

Hello I know I have the quiz I am supposed to do but I wanna blog about something else now... Maybe I'll do it another day ya fa? :)

Okay in this post I am going to talk about my dreams last night!! :) Okay I dreamt of exhilarating and exciting things!! But well there was an element of well, hurt in it but I don't want to talk about it... It's something I have to deal with and I just hope I'll stop thinking of all this erm... whatever. *Sigh*

Okay I dreamt that there was a class field trip to kuala lumpur! Lol so weird huh the bus ride was really long and I don't know why I sat at the back alone and away from my friends. =/? Well then we reached and we came to this weird dark place where there was fighting to be done hahaha:D I realised then that I was a ninja! Haha I think I am playing too much games eh...:D Naruto to be precise:P Yeah it was like the mugenjo hahaha I know I am so talking nonsense but it felt really real la.. Which is good at some pt but bad at others... *sigh*

Okay well we fought or smth until there were only me and another big guy left haha and our mission was to kill this like grizzly bear(must be symbolising pooh! :P) So weird huh. Yeah kay btw I got to be the final two by sheer luck haha but then oh I defeated the bear... and I don't know how I managed to=.= hahaha... super rah:D

Ya then okay after that it was even weirder I was in this "largest man-made cave in the world" (what the?? I heard a man telling me that in my dream=.=) and I hung from a rope to swing back and forth!! That was the so-called prize!! Like what? Why can't I have like free ice cream or smth... or a golden ticket to willy wonka's chocolate factory!! :DD Haha. Plain random ehhh...

Okay okay so what a weird dream eh:) But well at least it was less scary than the one I had where I was in a house full of zombies=.=! I think I'm too imaginative at times... rmb me being a fairy? Haha...

Wait, but that's not it. I dreamt of smth else... or more like someone else. This is really weird but cool... I dreamt of vivek in India! Hahaha... I went to visit him and for some strange reason he was in different roles and outfits (okay you guys must be confused now but nvm) hahaha that was funny... but really really fun!

Okay but I think that's too much for one night both physically and emotionally... ...

Sweet dreams everyone:D

Rah♥

2008-12-20T14:24:00.003+08:00

Hello pooh said she'd only update if I did so here's my post. :) okay hmm don't know what to write.:) erm oh ya went to malaysia on wednesday i think and it was nice^^ lol my sis and bro are playing miniclip now so funny:)

Oh then went to help mummy the day after it was tired but okay I guess it was nice helping her^^ Plus I had my psp to play when I was bored:) naruto is really fun:D

Then yesterday went to watch a movie with sean wanted to catch yes man but instead caught Igor instead... The movie was alright, quite funny at times:) overall okay show especially the touching elements of it:) lucky I had a nice companion at my side though^^ yup but before that looked around at shops selling figurines and games and stuff wow some figurines are really coool but they're really expensive x.x Felt like I was in a museum haha :P It was fun exploring:D oh ya he piggybacked me haha it was really weird I was slipping off but I admit it was kind of fun:P oh and sorry for being like that I promise I'll share with you everything okay? Oh thanks for the christmas gift too I really like it. ^^ Looking forward to your letter!

Oh hmm I asked my aunt about volunteering at rainbow since I had free time and I couldn't find a job (sobs... :'( ) but my aunt asked if I was up to it for it wouldn't be easy... that some kids there are hard to care for... but that would mean they needed help all the more wouldn't it? But am I really up to it?? Maybe I'd go and see how things are, and give it a try. Just wondering if I'd be more of a hindrance than a help *sigh*... =/

Hmm all I know is that I don't want to stay cooped up at home using the com or watching the tv all day long... Anyone have wanna join me for activities?? Jogging? Cycling? :( oh ya but I think we'll be having a little slumber party soon planning going on now heh.

Pooh!! Cy!! Pig!! Eeyore!! (: sorry piglet is being lame. Heh.

Tata~♥

Oh vivek come back will you!!! Oh and thanks rasina for the really neat gift!^-^

2008-12-13T23:03:00.004+08:00

Hello I'm back kay I am simply lazy to update but just suddenly feel like.

Well this week has been okay I guess oh I rmb went jogging with sean:) and it was fun... well I thought I wouldn't be able to keep up.. but ya u know my stamina sucks still=.= okaay nvm well we kinda got lost and we walked all the way back a few bus stops but chatting was nice^^

Okay hmm oh went to ntuc to apply for a job but they didn't call me:'( instead hf was called... maybe they don't want gals...sexist. :( Well I am still waiting but I think tmr I'll follow him to go haha:) Well if I don't get the job maybe I'll do something different... (ideas in head ^^)

Yesterday went to west coast for asveeny's party. Me, dah, asv, cy, hf, sean, kim, anna, gary were there... Well it was quite fun:) The three disney gals besides me always went to mac for the aircon-.- lol. Then went to vivo after and watched bolt^^ the show is quite moving...:) Then went to toys r us oh the toys there are so cute haha^^ especially the puppets! Gary and sean had a showdown haha so cute la... Yup then felt really tired and then home sweet home:)

Pics:) Thanks kim^^

December babies:)

Today I went to Ikea to buy furniture for my room:) Yay my room is much nicer and tidier now^^ It was tiring but fun clearing up... Oh no but now the ouside is a mess haha looks like there is still much to help clear. Oh, thanks daddy for helpinggg! :D /huggg

Hmm okay I hope he likes his presents...:) hope they surprise you well enough...♥

Gosh I have this recurring flu but it's like not serious though...:)Irritating though. Ohoh I am trying to go to daddy's gym one of these days anyone interested...:) Kays think I'm done for now byebye...

Love, piglet♥

2008-12-06T22:59:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone I am really tired... well so are my feet. But it can also be said to be a fun experience...:):) Updated since my sis did. Got bored of the psp...

Worked today at orchard gave out flyers:) thanks sean for the recommendation yeah ;) It happened to be for singtel haha so I saw red and white the whole day. Well we kinda got lost many times today it was kind of like an amazing race:P Haha. Hmm... it was quite nice actually to give out flyers quite a simple job(especially with sean doing all of the explanation...thanks^^) and yeah I smiled the whole time okay... :):) lol... Oh oh sean and I had to be the ones to stand at the starhub side... we got chased off in a matter of time! Like hey... I am paid to give out the flyers not gu yi wanna steal starhub's customers okay... =.= relax man

Oh oh and ya haien haishien sean and I were like packing flyers in bags and giving them out like some factory way la hahaha... that was kinda neat. :) But then after that time I felt quite tired alr... But I persisted and managed to give out a whole stack! :) Yay!!!... *yawns*...

Okay well btw I'm looking elsewhere for a job now:) Okay my legs hurt... :( Byebye wanna go sleep now zzz... need to work tmr still.

Love, rah.❤

2008-12-04T15:46:00.004+08:00

Here are some of the pics

Look at asveeny's face, freaky right?!

Sexy pooh!;)

Lol erm. :) cute couple haha:)

2008-12-03T22:13:00.003+08:00

Hii okay I have been MIA for like pretty long. Well I have been pretty busy or well just couldn't get the chance to post maybe. Well I spent about two days painting my room and clearing out my stuff and yet the place is still an entire mess gosh...well i mean the area outside my room:( My room is really clean now at least:) But the painting is still not done hai:( Will have to do it during the weekends. Okay but it was quite fun clearing though tiring...

Yup then oh the next day stayed at home, played the psp and oh played badminton at the porch then well in the evening there was a power-cut!! Like what!! Then well ate dinner in the darkness haha we were looking for candles haha. Candlelit dinner eh romantic:D Haha then well played uno stacko hahaa didn't play for ages it was totally fun^^ Yay it was like so suspenseful!!! Played with candles beside of course. Wow now I understand what vivek went through! Well partly... haha. Okok then after played more badminton!! This time at the playground. There's like no one there at night so it's peaceful^^ It was nice getting away from technology and stuff for a change... :) Yup then oh I want to jog in the mornings haha so does my maid haha not really my sis though. But oh yeah I realise that my stamina really sucks... =.=

Okay then the yesterday I went to asveeny's house to play badminton but haha was lazy to bring the rackets :P Then haha asv chased me!! Lol... oh ya we went for a jog too haha went to piggy's house and I think he was snoozing zzz haha. Then entered pooh's house watched tv hahaha really funny shows laa. The guy was so toot right!!! Hahahaha... And some parts were just gross okay... even though it was censored I was still disturbed okay.. Random but sean's really sweet. ^^ Okay digression haha... kay then ate a late lunch...the food was nice thanks^^ then piggy finally came after 4 hours. Then yeah watched him eat, talked talked then took pics! ^^ Haha... oh will post them later. Am too lazy:)

Kay after went to vivo with dah hf and sw and watched quarantine waaa the show is like really freaky haha and nice!!^^ Okay but like it was really thrillinggg. Lol sw slept for awhile okay what a waste right?! He said he had a headache...but ya I felt quite giddy too... But still the show is really nice!:) hahaha hf and his rabies (hmm correct spelling?=/) kay then ya went to shop awhile after but hey sw didn't get us a gift yet nor did I get him one. What a waste right? The shops were closed:( Ahh nvm I'll just buy all the gifts at once^^ Hmm what to get :)

Okay then ya as hf said, saw tyrus working there haha:D when I was buying popcorn he saw me...lol ladies man eh... haha. But ya he looked cute in his uniform haha with the bear trainee tag^^ Sw so daring took his photo when his colleagues were like just there? Hahaha:) and hf bought a gummy for $3! Wow so ex huh... haha but yeah to see tyrus la haha!

Okay then today went out with sean took neoprints and watched the four christmases it is a really funny christmas show hahaha... refreshing^^ check it out:) Oh thanks for the necklace it's really pretty and thanks for the confidence that comes along with it^^ really thoughtful of you. And thanks for the choc it was really sweet (both ways) ^^Oh and ya for the job too:) may go for the interview for u know what:) I'll see how things go. Oh and on the 23 of aug, I'll hear what you asked for...*fingers crossed*i'd remember.

Oh god my chest is hurting right now... it's been days:( Don't know what's wrong. Hope I don't have to go to the hospital like my bro did. He got a lot of blood taken! I don't want to faint again...:( But it hurts everytime I breathe deeply. Please go away...:(

Kay can't wait for asv's birthday party^^ Hope it'd be fun:) Yay early wishes girl;)) You'll get a surprise^^ (I hope) *fingers crossed* Alrighty then it's been a long post. Byee!♥

...Omg I have to call my mum now to tell her about my pain... my bro wants me to go to the hospital:'( please no I don't want to go.

=/

outing to singapore expo

2008-11-29T01:44:00.002+08:00

It's pretty late so this will be a quick one. Firstly, thanks to kim and vivek for the sweet tags. :) Thanks for caring ya? I feel so blessed to have friends like you guys. ^^ I believe everything is okay. Hope so for everyone, OKAY? And we can talk soon yeah.:) And vivek don't be emo la. Why say you suck. Well maybe guys always say that but... You are a great person okay... So smile! :)

Okay today I went to Singapore Expo to look for a laptop for my bro! So fun okay, walking around with my two bros (who are quite tall=.=) and mum. My eldest bro kept putting his hand on my head! =.= Grr... Haha yeah then he always disturbs me. And my second bro was happy I could tell. ^^ And YAY! He's giving me his PSP! ^^!! With games included! Yay I don't have to go buy one... thanks! :D And my sis got my other bro's cam. ^^ Santa came early this christmas;) Okay oh ya speaking of gifts, I need to like go gift shopping already. :) Hmm what should I get... ^^ The joy of giving! (tho receiving can be quite nice too:P^^)

Okay I feel quite bad actually I was supposed to go for this bus tour with varun and gang but now I can't 'cos I have to help my daddy paint the house. He bought paint for my room! Barley colour... haha. =/ And and I need to like clean up my room cos like there are still stuff lying around everywhere. =/ Oh well hope you guys have fun yeah! ^^ Oh and what's more today is my parents' wedding anniversary... :) Happy anniversary! ^^

Oh it's sooo fun playing the sketch game! Thanks, fa! My mum and bro were like so funny ahaha.:D

Random but, Vivek is SOO thick-skinned okay... he's taking after me! LOL. But hey really I'm not okay... really!! :) Well maybe at the cheeks la. Baby fat. ^^v

Kay, byee!♥

2008-11-28T01:36:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone. I wanted to post yesterday, seriously, but I came back feeling too tired to do anything... It was my first day (or rather night) of work you see. Okay so sorry yeah? I'm currently feeling kinda mixed, like, both happy and upset?...

Yesterday I well can't remember what I did in the morning... Oh yes. Woke up late for some reason, guess I'm just lazy. Then skipped breakfast... Not much of an appetite these days (don't ask me why) and yeah only to find out we were going out for lunch to celebrate my aunt's birthday in advance. So yeah I went and I felt soo full okay. But yeah it was nice meal I guess. Happy early birthday! :) Oh didn't eat dinner anyway so ya, haha two meals.;)

Then after that I went to work... first day at the job, and it was pretty okay. (People out there if you're still job-hunting don't ask me for reccommendations 'cos I'm helping my mum yeah?;) ) But think it's only temporary so yeah. I even learnt new skills and things, yay. ^^v Yup and haha actually I didn't wanna take any salary 'cos after all it's helping my mum but well she insisted. So :). Okay I even heard some guys smiled at me 'cos I was like playing around at the job haha. Yes, I was... haha, so what? When work is play, work is not work but still work. Weeeee~ Get it? :) Okay I seriously don't know what's wrong with me, don't ask. :)

Okay well since vivek's post was uber looong I think mine would not be deemed too long right? ;)

Let's talk about today. Oh God, at first, it was horrid. Woke up at like 10am when I set an alarm at 7am -.- So yeah thought I would go out with Kim today but, well, nope. And it so called was the problem.

Hey, it's not that I'm really angry or anything (don't get me wrong). It's just that, why does it happen so many times? Sometimes it can get frustrating... you know that? Well I think you do 'cos I already told you. Yes, I did express my unhappiness. Would you have rather I put on a smiley facade and talk behind your back to others? I believe the answer is no right? And no I did not mean to hurt you if I did... I'd never want to do that. It's just that I am kind of tired with all this... If I didn't say how I really feel I think I might have just exploded inside. I just didn't know how to deal with my emotions, I ended up writing a draft (okay I'm becoming more like vivek=/). I hope you don't take it the wrong way. What do you mean you're not a good friend? Whether you're a good friend or not is up to others to decide, and up to you to prove. So prove it, if you want to be a good friend. That's all that's important, okay? I guess well we're closer friends than that, so I shouldn't have hid any heartfelt feelings from you. So smile, kay.:) I'd leave you to think about anything you want to, be it your own problems or what not. If you need to talk to someone about it, you can turn to me. Piglet's shoulder is always here for you to lean on. But ya I don't want to think about this thing anymore...I am tired. But if you really need me just tell me I'd be there for you okay?

Okay some digression there. Well I went to _ . I hope everything goes well ya...:) I feel blessed. ^^ Yup then after I went to shop with my sis!! Yay I didn't realise that shopping with her alone can be fun haha. :) I bought some things for her too haha so cute.:) But ya couldn't shop for so long 'cos I needed to work. Ya but today was kind of slacking... =/ But ya I played alot with my sis.^^ Lol I didn't care if people were looking. Ya and OH I played a board game with my aunt and mum lol I didn't know they could be so funny and fun to play with. Lol when my aunt rolled a double 1 I laughed okay! She was like WTH... Okay I'm laughing just thinking about it. :D And even funnier, when she rolled a 5, then re-rolled giving some lame(sorry:P) excuse in the hopes of getting a higher no. and rolled another 5! I was like LOL. And yeah, she lost. HAHA. Well sorry, but it is funny... :) ^^ You can say for that instance it took my troubles away.

Okay, it seems that the people around me are like getting really nice and sweet yeah? ;) You all show the true value of life, and that is of love in all her forms. Haha. :) I love love okay! And ya ppl are so sweet, okay... ^^ Just hope it's not just a short, quick, feeling that would soon fade. Love should be everlasting, true? ^^ And it should go deeper than superficial, for all its worth. Yes? :) Take care, everyone.

Love,
Rah♥

Sometimes words sound as though they serve to hurt, but in truth it hurts the one who says it...

A life filled with uncertainties, bitterness and happiness, is one I have.

Oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAO WEI :)

New skin!

2008-11-25T20:13:00.000+08:00

Hello yay I've changed my skin! Vivek said my old skin wasn't user friendly so here is my new skin. Well was thinking if changing it anyway. Is it better? Thanks for your comments guys! ^^ Actually i found this nice blue skinn:D but too bad it couldn't really work well so I chose this instead. Well, it is coincidentally PURPLE. Hey guys, purple is an international gay colour BUT it's still a nice, sweet colour yeah? :)

And okay okay I'll try to update regularly ok? Just that sometimes I can't find the time to like ytd (or am just plain lazy haha:P) Hey vivek, deprivatise!! I wanna read your blog. :) Can post some pics of you in India? Maybe I'll be there in your picture. LOL. What if huh.

Hmm okay ytd in the morning was pretty much just playing around haha with the com. Mum sis and I were taking turns to play hahaha. ^^ Lol my sis is going out for a walk now. Feel like going too. The night looks lovely, as usual:) Wonder what the moon looks like. Okay so after that went to orchard to get my baby back! I missed her! Heheh..:) Eh? My sis is jumping around now hahaa eeyore has become tigger? o.O Oh ya then after that dah got her CR bag haha. Double happiness.;)

Today, I pretty much didn't do much, okay! Gosh... :'( Was like using the com not fully though. Ask kim and asveeny, they should know. =.= I want to get a part time job asap! Hmm I can either get from the classifieds or look around for job vacancies.

Tomorrow, I am going to the doctor's in the morning. Don't ask why. And piggy, I am so not pregnant okay? I'm pure!! Unlike you:P Just jk.:) Lol speaking of the devil, he just came online and replied my msg at the same time. -.- Okok then after that probably just go out and do some stuff... shop maybe? Look for jobs? At least it'd be a better day than today.:)

Wanna go out and do some stuff! Bowl with kim and asv! :D Play badminton!^^ Ohoh sentosa has the 4D shows thing ahaha. So interesting! Oh ya our slumber party! Oh need to source for gifts too... :)

Okay bye everyone! Dah wants to use the com now. Oh and to my DEAR FRIEND, SMILE, kay? You look better that way... :)

Love, Rah♥

Wow piggy said purple is nice.:) Omg oh ya dreams dreams dreams. Why am I having them? But one dream I had well at least was kinda sweet I think?:) Hope I don't forget it. It's not like the other nightmares... :(Oh but today I had one whereby I was a fairy lol and I was running away from the BIG humans! Wee... It's fun to get away from life at times. :) But maybe that's how TINY I really feel inside... And how I'm running away from those uncertainties?

pooh and vivek

2008-11-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone. :)

Prom's over, and it was okay I guess. :) It's memories that I shall hold on to forever.. I will keep everyone of you right here in my heart ya:) Hmm okay I read smth quite shocking... too bad you are not here right now, both of you. I wonder how you guys will react to it. But hey pooh I'm glad you finally opened up... after so long, after so much. I think he deserved more. Didn't know you'd be so brave. But hey it's a good thing.:)

Hmm oh sorry for not updating regularly... can't seem to get the drive to update regularly, even now. I'll try yeah? And guess what my sis is finally updating after a looong time. Well I'll try my best to help her get in! *fingers crossed* :)

Okay today was a normal day... nth really exciting but hey I liked it no matter.^^ Woke up at 5 in the morning (as usual). Wanted to say goodbye to him but thought it was too early so back to slumber I went... ~.~zz Then his msg woke me up at about 7(thank god) so I said my goodbyes. :) Hope you have fun there ^^ I'll be here job hunting! Hope I can find smth good to do. :) oh ya and ytd was a nice outing it was peaceful and quiet just the way I like it. :)

Kay then I helped clean my front porch(after what seemed like years-.-) and it was fun! Got wet and stuff haha... miss playing like that. Then got scolded for playing lol. =X heehee^^ Then cleared my room! Yay ya I know I am really slow all of you probably have done it but ya. Heh I have more or less cleared my books. Think I'm gonna donate the books on monday. Oh dear, hope Mrs Toh gets my books! I'm kinda late. =/ Sorry... bad piglet:( Hmm yup while I was clearing my side of the room the lazy eeyore was playing com-.- Naughty eeyore. See the younger one set good example:P Heheh no la playing is a good example too.;)

Hmm yeah then went out to eat cos no food at home:( Don't like to eat out cos lazy:P and the portion is always too much! But ya no choice ma... Bro ticked me off for complaining then ranted about the children in Africa then I was sorry :( and I was like okay I shall zip my mouth and :) But really if only doing that could help those kids... Hmm.. :(

Okay tmr... I am having a prayer session for my late grandma...bless her soul. And on monday hopefully I can get back my poor baby(phone lol) from wheelock and get that eeyore's carlo rino bag. Yay double happiness^^ oh and maybe can see _ soon. Hope soo... I want want want to go so badly okay:'(

Wow everyone is either overseas already, have come back or are going soon. Don't know if I even am going. Oh well we will see:) Take care all you guys!

Love,
Rah♥

Take care of yourself love, and have a great time:D

2008-11-18T15:11:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone i'm back. Too Vivek("innocent boy"-.-) and PPiggy, yay I have finally updated. Happy? :) Erhm okay, what to say. Ytd was a pretty tiring day... Went to vivo to do some shopping. After window shopping the past few days, I just decided to finally get my prom clothes. Well I got it, it's pretty simple and it's black. Going black and white since my shoes are white. Hai feel stressed thinking about the people dressed up so glamorously(should they). Mine is quite nice I think but it's simple. Oh well as long as I look decent. The salesgirl actually looked at me then suggested some really erm... uncomfortable-to-wear dresses. They were like so revealing! Then you won't believe what she said lo... she said suits my figure can.. -.-Made me feel uncomfortable trying out. She asked me to come out but too shy~.~ So mine is quite simple but I like it cos it's not over-the-top and most importantly, comfortable to wear:)

Kay then after that rushed to meet hf. Sorry for being so late! Ya then went for the class bbq at teresa ville, my old house. I walked around and surveyed the place. I don't have childhood memories there, apart from my brother falling down and getting hurt poor thing. :( Erm the BBQ was okay, but it was quite well... ok la. Didn't eat much... didn't really have an appetite. I have a lot to say, but it just can't come out, somehow. I don't know... or maybe I do. But it just well, sucks...:( Nvm i'm trying I really am.

Oh ya i have to pass to mrs toh some of the textbook she requested for. But it's quite troublesome having to go back to school. Oh well nvm it's sacrifices we have to make. :) Hmm tmr's prom hope I'll enjoy myself. :) Oh ya asveeny will be coming to my house to get ready there:D like you know what I mean... girls ma:) Then after think going to vina's house to see some things like the blazers:) then go together from there:) Er oh ya but I think I'm going for the more than words interview:) Hmm actually don't know if working is a good idea but think I should la... at least I'll have some exp. Oh and save some money, 1.1k a month. But that would cut my time on doing other things like maybe volunteer work or smth... I still have my to-do list staring at me. Hope to do some things there! Thinking about it makes me a little...sad. But nvm there's hope.:)

Okay think I'll be going out soon to get some other stuff:) Maybe can meet asveeny and cy?:D

With love,
Rah♥

Sometimes I think about some things that make me feel quite :( but I think I shouldn't say anything cos it's not anyone's fault. I'd like very much for us to share our problems but... unless you really want to know I think it's better kept within me. But don't worry too much love, smile always:) cos it's you I care about more at the end of the day. If you want, I'll try and open up more, okay? It's comprimises we'll all have to make at the end of the day.

2008-11-10T16:23:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone I'm back... finally! Stupid com had some problem I couldn't access blogger!! Tried so many times. Then I used my BRAINS (there'll be NO blue moon tonight!) and signed in through another way... signed in to view a private blog and voila! Then after that no more problems! Yay cheng gong le weehee~^^v Okay so hmm what did I want to blog about anyway? Hmm... *thinks hardly*... *crickets* lol:D

Hmm okay so I'm left with chemistry and biology paper 1s to do. Hope I can scoreeeeee! Arghh I flunk physics aaaaaahhh :( Why why... thought the mcq was manageable right until I found out my stupid mistakes... :'( ARHH nvm it's over. :( On to chem and bio now! Thank god for bio! Hope I can compensate with bio...

Hmms oh i have been playing monopoly with my family these few days and I won whee!~ ^^ and I'm a noob kay. Ya I admit. :) Go ahead tease me all you want guys I'm used to it alrrrr.

:)

Hmms. Went to vivo today to look around for ideas on what to wear for prom. Hmm. I really don't know... wanted to wear just a one-piece common kinda dress but think many will do that and it's kinda well... not diff? NOT that I have a problem with sameness! Nvm I'll source for my clothes on another day after the exams with asv and some other ppl hahaaaa. Force u to wear a short dress hahaha.. sexy eh;) You can't escape from this piglet teeheehee. I'll bind you, and NOT myself kay. =.= :PP Hmm did I play more today? Yay then I shall continue to disturb you muahahaaa.

Hmm okay I'm done for today will blog another time byee.♥

'O's are almost over!

2008-11-05T17:28:00.001+08:00

Hello everone, I'm back! ;) Okay it has been eternity, hasn't it. Okay nothing much has happened since my last post... *checks fingernails* nah! It was the BIG Os! Yes, it's almost over! :D Left with MCQs tho which are really impt as well. So everyone, don't relax too much yeah! Jia you, add oil!! Lubricant yeah? *squeaksqueak* oh no.. no creaking please! I'm lame yeah? That takes skill. :P Some amatuers try so hard to be lame but can't :( :P teeheehee.

Erhms I'm so proud of everyone... we pulled through! :D The papers were all okay, 'cept for PHYSICS! ArGh! boo:'( But yeah everyone thought so so... byebye subby:( thermocouple... i drew two thermometers together. Couple ma. GOSH! =.= Diediedie. Totally neglected it and when it came out I could feel the tears coming. :( Nvm tt's all old stuff.. don't wanna talk about it... :(

Oh rgd the last post thanks everyone. :)

Kays wanted to watch a movie these few days but the shows are a let down so nah. :( Kay i miss my friends can't wait to hang out after the last papers^^

Kay oh ya don't think ppl will read this since my blog has been so dead. But yeah just tag if u read yeah? Oh ya! Southpark is cool! Yeah know not really suitable haha but it's really really humourous haha. :) Kay everyone, relax, play hard and study hard! Stay happy always!Tata~

loves,
Rah♥

I love butters:D

2008-09-30T16:47:00.000+08:00

Beneath that cheerful facade, lies a girl who's vulnerable and who's hurting very much deep down inside... as I tried to keep those tears at bay, on this very special day, I realise, I simply could not...

Happy birthday to me. :) Sweet sixteen.

Why did my heart have to hurt so much on this special day? Why did the pain linger on and not go away? What happened ytd, it was supposed to be special. It was... but... it was unexpected. The initial pain that came is nth compared to what I feel now... and it sucks. Why did I have to feel this way on my birthday? Why?... I tried very hard to be strong and smile for the sake of my friends... How could anyone possibly be so troubled on her birthday? But I really love all you guys, thanks for all your wishes kay? They were all really sweet. Thanks especially to chian yil, claribel, rasina for your gifts. I love you guys.

And you. Thank u for trying to cheer me up. If you're reading this, you know who you are. Thanks for being so sweet.

It's been a long time since I felt such pain... a really long time. I've never cried this badly in a long time. But I hope it goes away... I really hope it does.

Maybe guys are different from girls. Girls are more vulnerable, in a way. And to make things worse, I'm me... too soft-hearted? Since when was that ever deemed a bad thing? Well, maybe it is... as it can make one weak. Maybe girls have it harder than guys do...

And I never ever felt upset with anyth u did... nor did we argue. But this time, I really got hurt... It just happened and now you move away. How would a girl feel? Or me?.. I understand your intentions but I can't help but hurt inside. But I shall still say sorry if I had caused this... I'm not self-centered I know I'm not the only one facing this pain.

To everyone out there, I didn't intend to write about my feelings but I really didn't want to bottle things up... I know if I did... well I don't know what stupid things I would have done. But if you're reading don't be worried or anything... rah may look small and weak, but in truth she can be a brave soul.;) Mr ma said that too u know... :)

So i'm gonna put on a happy face when I cut my cake... hope in all my heart that I'd heal from this... that I'd be a better, stronger person. Hey, I'm sixteen now. :)

And tmr's hari raya. Hope i'd feel alot better by then. I'd do anything as long as I don't dampen the mood, even if it means to smile whether it kills me. I'd give up my heartful happiness in return for my loved ones' in a heartbeat.

If I may have these wishes, I wish to:
1) Have the strength to be able to focus on the 'o's.
2) Have all my family and friends be happy always.
3) Be a better person each day.

Praying deep down in my heart that I'd get past this. And I'm sorry mum.

class movie at lido

2008-09-25T20:18:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.:)

Well actually I didn't plan to update today nor did I even plan to come online.. but well since pooh asked me to, i'm here! Wanted to study actually.. was actually excited to!:)After reading the notes lol ^^ but then asv asked me. Lol nvm la guess i'll stay up late tonight. Was so tired today but somehow i just couldn't get to sleep. Bio was long and many ppl didn't go. But Mr ma wasn't really angry lol. Wonder why.

Kay well got back all of our papers. My points seem nice actually at the end of it all, but know that overall I dropped a little. Others are improving and I'm dropping. Gotta put in more effort!! Well but maybe my study method really isn't very effective.

Ahh now I really feel like sleeping. Damn. Where's that caffeine? Boo.:(

Oh ya ytd the class(most) went to lido to watch "mad about english". Well it was really funny at the beginning but later on I just felt like sleeping... lol. Came a little late thanks for waiting guys:) Then after the movie joined a group of ppl.. got a little complicated. *Sigh* We eventually just split up into our pairs and separated... After that I felt more at ease. Well at least at the end of the day I got a free movie and popcorn and drinks (to give away^^) AND i finally got a gift for my daddy and (shh! hee...)

Oh ya asveeny is pooh right? Now I'm officially piglet! Someone got me a cute piglet... my first birthday gift^^It's simply so cute! It's now my bedtime companion^^ Thank you:)

Yay wonder what we all can do at my house:) Hope my ps2 can still function lol... my bros wanna get wii or ps3 but dunno what to get. Well i want a psp^^ but after the 'o's! Don't wanna get distracted!

To asveeny, thanks for such a sweet post.^^ Yup we shall remain friends forever yeah? And don't you think it's simply too cool?if u know what i mean;) and will u really stay over? lol:D Pooh and piglet shall stay BFF:)

Kay heard abt some things being said abt us. But wait. What did I do wrong? Where do I go from here? I could have turned ugly, but no. I'm not gonna stoop to that level. It's just not worth it. I'm not like that. It doesn't mean that with new friendships forged, old ones are extinguished. I hope you understand that and not simply assume, because when you assume, ...I think I don't have to put that cliche phrase here.

Words, for all they were flimsy and invisible, had great strength. They could be as fortified as a castle wall and as sharp as a foil. They could bite, slap, shock, wound. So recognise the implications of your words before you release them into the world. Bear in mind that words can never be retrieved once they are let free. So, think before you speak. If you really just want others to think bad of us, then I've really got nothing to say...

Hope that our last week of school together would be memorable. I think I'd miss the school...

xoxo,
Rah♥
sweet cheeks.<3

prelims are over:D

2008-09-19T13:24:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone i'm finally back!

Prelims are over:) ARRRRRHH think i can't do well lo. Especially my bio. Si ding le.:'( So sad I think I flunk it? All that I studied didn't come out.. boo. :( Waa chatting with justina and poohbear now haha soo nice ppl:P Kay so couldn't find ppl to go out with and ironically many ppl say that? Like don't we all just find each other.Hah. Hmm oh no gonna flunkkkk physics paper 1 and chinese paper 2 :'( aww. I regret even retaking MT lo... A B3 is like god-like for my standard.. But because of some stupid rule the school put here I am. Think I'm seriously gonna fail badly for the chinese paper.

Okay so I hear there's some talk going on.. Kay so I wouldn't mind some ppl knowing... but why are so many ppl like talking? Haiii. And why would they think so??? But nvm it doesn't really bother me...

Hmm oh ya I did find something out and it's like super super duper cool! Wee. Happy happy for some peeps.^^ And the acting can get hilarious lol but I kinda knew:PP

Hmm my birthday is coming! Sweet sixteen! Yays.:) And it falls on the day before hari raya. Can't wait to have my friends over. We can play cluedo many many times and I can win them many many times!!! lol:D oh and to pooh u can eat kueh! Haha know u love kueh right;) Don't worry i'll make nice, SPECIAL kueh for u lol. Heeheehee;D

Okay like my life now is pretty nice but strange? Lol weird huh. Dunno la but it's much better than before... I've learnt to really open my heart. :) It's much more peaceful now. U know when I feel bitter or anything I'd just take a breath and wait cos I know i'll eventually feel the calm. Lol dunno why I'm suddenly like this. (: Yay I can resume to finish my book! Then I can go on to read vina's book. Hope I can finish it in time! Speaking of which I rmb I made a bookmark for someone.. wonder if that person still uses it. Don't lose it okay I put my heart into it! :)

Hmmm there's gonna be a 205 chalet yet again? Lol we never stop do we. :) And ms leong may come? Omg. :) But it would really be great if faraha were there. Damn I miss her loads. :(

Kays, think I'm done for now. Byee♥

LOVE

2008-09-02T16:08:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone again:D Someone asked me to blog so here I am... :)

I shall begin with two cute and meaningful quotes^^

Love is like swallowing hot chocolate
before it has cooled off.
It takes you by surprise at first,
but keeps you warm for a long time.

Love is like playing the piano.
First you must learn to play by the rules,
then you must forget the rules and play from your heart.

Such wonderful meanings these quotes carry.:) I was in deep thought about some things yesterday night, and I settled to seeing how things would go later on. It was tiring to think about it. I'd leave it for later... But one thing i'm sure of is that I love you.

Prelims are coming! Everyone seems so hardworking now, it's scary but cool! :D I needa work work work too.:) And thanks mel, just and sean for the encouragement for the practicals. Certainly hope it'll turn out well for not just me but for all of us.:)

Oh and ya fasting started ytd... though I didn't fast and even today. Cos of some reasons.. but think I can tmr.:) But am kinda fasting now still... at least I can still experience somewhat the ppl's pain... :)

Byee, loves.♥

When I miss you, I don't have to go far ... I just have to look inside my heart because that's where I'll find you.

vivek vina's bday and teacher's day

2008-08-30T15:31:00.000+08:00

Hey everybody i'm back after such a short time! :D

Okay there's this saga and it's complicated. It's tiring to watch... Hope things will be over soon. I seriously wanna put a stop to this. But if you hurt any of the people I love you'll get it. And I simply can't stand ppl with superiority complexes. Like, puh-lease. Can't u be a tiny bit more humble at least? There are SO many people out there who are better than you yet you think you're the best. Why use such insignificant yardsticks to prove your prowess? Zz. Like, can't you exercise a lil' more restrain? Simply don't understand such people. And I think I never will... Such people who only see the small picture are just myopic. No one said it's wrong to be confident. But to think you're superior over someone else for just that one reason, is simply NAIVE thinking.

It's utterly disturbing and degrading.

Okay I shall stop ranting about this.

Ytd was a long and fun day. Was the teacher's day celebrations. :D Too bad I didn't get all teachers a gift... Had no time and didn't know what to get. Anyway, gave some last yr and some didn't even thank us zz nvm. But, gave Mr Ma a card. :) Though someone else paid for it-.- zz lol. :) Kay then after that went out to watch a movie with some ppl. Was a bad combination hai. Felt bad. But sw had nice green eyes.:)

After that had more fun someplace else.:) thanks for the invite to go along.^^

Watched so many movies this past week. 3 to be precise. Watched mummy, wall.e and star wars ytd. All were not bad I guess. Like Wall.E so cute and the storyline is so interesting. ^^ But think I have to mug this week prelims are here! Gotta work hard rah! Hope the practicals go on fine am really worried. :(

Hope I don't miss you too much.

Byee dear blog. ♥

And I liked spending time with you, in that warm embrace. And you told me you wanted to, but also that u wanted to wait... for it'd make things more stable. You're a rare breed. :)

LONG TIME!

2008-08-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

Hey guys it has been a long time!

Okay so how long has it been since i last updated? Exactly 20 days it seems. Many things have happened as usual...

Kay the olympics were great fun to watch sg finally got a medal haha. Kay know i'm so lag haha. Had english and mt paper 1 ytd and ss paper plus eng paper 2 today. English was tough! :'( Hope the 'o's would nt be as hard... Yay tmr's a special day for many reasons heheheh. :)

Then... ya went out these past few days with someone. :) He's really such a nice and caring and kind person and more. :) First time holding hands:) And he always sends me home.:) Kay so if you're reading this know that you're cute too.^-^ And oh ya thanks for all the help and still haven't ate finished the choc haha. :)

Okay hope tmr'll be a nice day. Pretty excited for some reason heehee... hope the plan goes smoothly.

Happy teacher's day all teachers! Especially to mr ma and thanks for the choc^^

Byee. ♥ loves:)

national day, olympics

2008-08-09T18:40:00.000+08:00

Happy National Day!

08.08.08 :)
Hey everyone.:) Firstly, hope you guys have a great holiday. Study hard, but remember to relax as well yeah?

Okay first let's talk about this past week. Things were pretty normal and that's good.:) I am tired of all the drama... If you guys know anything about the matter do me a favour and shush kay? Thanks. And ya in spite of it all I don't want to give him any problems so ya thanks for the care but it's okay, really. Now let's digress, shall we?...

On wed watched the last parade rehearsal. Was okay... though got bored after awhile plus... nvm. Then went for night study. Quite a number of ppl turned up. :) And ya it's nice studying with friends. Mrs toh was there as well. Then after night study, vina haien vivek sean shunan came to my house for night walk haha so weird huh? What's so scary about sixth avenue? And there's supposedly a cemetery and I didn't know. -.- Sean had to leave early:( then halfway someone chickened out.-.- Haha. But ya it was still interesting la^^

Then can't really rmb abt thurs... quite uneventful. Except BIO, had practical. :) Was more of a cooking session, really. Justina made stew haha and dada made salsa with the cherry tomatoes and reducing sugar solutions. ^-^

Kay then ytd, it was the national day celebrations! :) It was pretty nice 'cept we sat down for hours my legs were killing me. Liked the song singing part^^ I really sang haha. And we hugged and held hands and stuff, so fun. :) The last national day celebrations i'll have in this school..

Kay every year, on the eve of national day, we (or at least i) have a tradition. To take neoprints! Did in sec2, sec3, and so now in sec4 too. But of course the ppl change... hai oh well. Went to tiong with asv and walked around before we met cy, who was with her mum then cbel. Then took neoprints.:) Then we went home. The place brought back memories, right up to the exact spots. They just came back to me... Anyway, it's sad can't scan in the pics we took in sec 2, maybe will next time. But I have last year's. :) One year intervals between each, the representation of the changes...

08.08.07

08.08.08

Okay, watching the parade now haha. It's lost it's element... it's not like before. No more kallang wave... everything's changing. I guess it's true the only constant thing in this world is change.

Yay mum's birthday's on monday got a gift alr heh. :) It's a cute teddy bear where u can put a photo shh.. :) Hope she'll like it. ^^

Okay my bro wants to play ball with me but I don't know how to :( haha. Think I'll go eat now. Oh ya and to everyone, u have misunderstood me I wasn't ref to him, I was ref to someone else so ya. Misunderstandings - I'm always being faced by them, especially from the ppl I ♥. But it's okay.

Byee.♥

And I kept seeing those initials everywhere, those of Ross Wakeman's. But why. They're always there... those constant reminders.

wanna date me after exams?hmm:)

one week of madness

2008-08-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.

This week has been the craziest week. *Sighs*
I went through a lot. Okay.. so we reverted to how it once was... I really felt like it was real, and I felt happy.:) But then after only one week something stupid happened. I really didn't know... Why am i being blamed? I swear I didn't know. But I guess this showed the truth of this, in a way. I've said it before, but i'll say it again. I'd never do anything to hurt u. So how could i have betrayed u intentionally. And you told me i deserved better and you shouldn't have hurt me so much last time. Are those just meaningless words?

I guess life is not a bed of roses. You can't expect ppl to be nice to you just because you are to them. Nvm, it's okay. Unlike last time, I'm now not facing this alone. Thanks to all those ppl who have given me support. The world's a better place with u guys in it.:) I didn't wanna get hurt again yet I did. And i feel so bad. I'm a bad person aren't I, I don't deserve your love. But i'd try to make up for it.

Gotta be strong rah, SMILE. :)

Erm have a lot of work to do as usual. Had a night walk ytd haha, so fun. Haven't had one since the guiding days. Very few ppl went for the night study. But think there'd be more coming after awhile. Although i was troubled, ppl cheered me up and I felt much better. :) But dunno why I've lost my appetite. Food exists just to fill my tummy. Oh, no. Is that a bad thing, or good thing.

Oh ya when watching the parade this guy i did not know just talked to me hahaa.. so weird. Then i realised who he was... someone told me before. But he seemed to know a lot abt marching.:) He was from bb so ya haha. Felt embarrassed when I didn't even know what went wrong with the marching haha oh well i DON'T CARE. GG made many mistakes though haha though I didn't know initially. I was enlightened. :)

Haha then today this woman whom I did not know chatted with me at the bus-stop.. "What nice teeth you have!" Hahaha erm well, thank you. :D And haha ppl have thought i was chinese(duh), malay (okay.. that makes sense i think), indian (WOAH really arh haha:D), indonesian (okay la) and eurasian (like what the really?) Haha. Then this woman thought i was from the philippines! So I have added one more to my list. :)

Okay i think i wrote a lot alr don't wanna think too much la like my friends tell me, studies is what's impt now. What can I do if you refuse to believe me. Nothing. Hence, i am powerless. Hence, my fate is controlled. Byee guys.♥

Nobody said life was gonna be easy. Maybe it's true that however much you try hard to do the right things, or to be nice to someone, you may not always get the same in return. And i'll continue hoping that smile on my face will ward off energy vampirism.

WEST COAST!

2008-07-27T10:56:00.000+08:00

Hello:) Yesterday was a FUN day!

Okay first... this week was pretty okay i guess, apart from the fact that I flunked my amath test *sigh*. Felt like crying... But ya thx to the ppl who cheered me up, especially dah:)

OMGOMG big brother's coming back this thurs!

Kay oh ya had fun playing 'hiding' with asv vivek sean haien.. we went to rescue dah lol. Dah was like, "huh what's going on?" then we just dragged her into the lift lol. Funny lah but wasted wanted to see vivek stick his head in the lift. :(

Okay then ya many things happened and stuff alot to blog but... dunno la.

YTD went to watch the dark knight. It's like 2.5 hours of intense action all the way! The first part was pretty slow... but after that virtually every part was a climax lol. Then went to west coast haha. "Smooth day indeed" -.- We walked like for at least half an hour to get there la thanks to someone's wrong directions... :) Walked one whole rnd lol. But it was worth it! Had loads of fun! But yeah was pretty vexed over some things... hai. And i really need to mug today hai. But it's okay la :)

But ya... hai dunno whether I should blog abt it... felt pretty confused and stressed about some things. Ya so now I know more ppl know but I don't really care. It's just... It can get... complicated. And ya I dunno why I said what I said. nvm. I thought i was... but. nvm. But it doesn't matter anyway right? So you shouldn't bother what the truth is cos it'll still be the same on your side. But why blow hot and cold with me... To those who don't understand just ignore this paragraph.

Okay think I'll have to work very hard today. At least the workload'll get my mind off some things. Byee.♥ Till next week.

Revelations... are somtimes too much for one to bear. The truth hurts sometimes, but it's the truth.

Eng course:D

2008-07-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

Asveeny sucks. lol. :D

Hello I'm back.:) This week has been okay... :)

Went for the english workshops last saturday and today. It was the one held by Mrs Marife Cruz Yap - the same woman from the compre workshop, rmb? She's hilarious! :D But actually today's focus, on narratives, I did not really enjoy mainly cos prefer doing recounts. But it's refreshing so yeah. :) Had lots of fun with dah and asv. ^^ Only downside was that tampines is so very far! But oh well how far away can places get in s'pore? :) Today was a pretty long day. Had amath in the morning followed by an english course then had to go for the workshop. Am pretty tired now... But yeah blogging tonight as tmr i'll probably be doing other things. Just realised I've got a whole lotta work to do.

Yup then smth weird happened as well. Actually am not supposed to blog abt it but ain't making anything clear, am I? Ya but I really didn't know what answer to give... All i knew and know is, the 'o's are coming. What else could I think about?... To get distracted by?... I'm happy with status quo now.

Oh ya anyway ppl around me are getting more 'polluted'! =X Haha. Then hf always does that H209 effect thingie! Lol. Eew... but can be cute la LOL. And hf searches on wikipedia for info on... waaa. Oh ya and during hist lesson kl told me lotsa funny stuff... like how 'toot' sw can get haha. Quite cute la some things... others are just unbelievable lah kay. Bastard aura lol.

Once the 'O's are over, I'm gonna let my hair down! :D But till then... it's blood sweat and tears. Haha. Sounds scary? =X But nah it's a challenging process we can endure together. Jy everyone! :D See rah's so nice to spur u all on. ^^ Can ppl out there spur me on pls? :( Lazy rah doesn't wanna be lazy anymore. :(

Oh oh ya heard ppl have alr made to sajc through DSA! Oh my gosh... scary kay! But yeah grats guys.:) But ppl like me gotta work work work... Think I'll prob stay in s'pore for my tertiary education. Probably will go overseas only after. But my second bro is going there next year, confirmed! Yay for him! Boo for me. :( Big Bro's coming back wee! :D Graduating le yay! Finally! ^^

Okay...*yawn*... think I'm gonna go turn in for the night. Guess I'll return next week.

Byee. ♥

Tears of both sorts seem to have eluded me, resulting in feelings buried deep down beneath that facade, seeming non-existent to the outside world, but making it's presence felt very much within me. But I thought to myself in those times: if one's unhappiness could be kept secret, and many others spared, then why not? It's gruelling but worth it, I often realise, at the end of the day.

But that's just life.

Pleasant school day.

2008-07-11T20:02:00.000+08:00

Hello my dear bloggie. Back so soon.:) Oh ya btw.. guys tag my board if u read it kay? :)

Today was a pleasant day at school. :) Had a talk on blood donation. Interested to donate. Give blood = Give life! So might as well right? :) But, am not 16 yet. Haha. So sad hf forgot my bday. Haha. Hmm. Oh ya his gift! So so sorry ppiggy. :( Will try to get u one soon kay? :) Yup then for assembly had dance performances. Mr Siah was so cute! lol^^ Rmb him dancing back in sec 2.:)

Kay then after that had chem prac... was okay la finished pretty early. Then... wanted to go for A math QSST but mrs toh said there'd not be enough 'space' for us. Then stayed on with hf to collect the ws but even that, we could not. Mrs soh complained we were too kiasu lol. But hf's a math is so bang alr... don't think he needs the practice. I do, though. Then met haien and... kept pressing him... a series of... :DD He's so shyyy lol! ^^

Then stayed on with piggy to watch the guides practice for GOH. They were... *ahem* nvm. :) Then chat with him abt lots of stuff... studies, next yr, PPL, etc. Time flew by quickly... Then vivek came and we chatted MORE. :) Pretty fun gossiping with guys lol. Thought abt many things then... Then it started to drizzle.:) So loved the weather. Went home with vivek. Missed one bus stop! Like, so pathetic, right?! =.= Was daydreaming and lost track. Was thinking about something... or rather, someone. But anyway was nice walking further la hah. Even turned into the playground. Longer route heh.

Going for an english course tmr. :) Hope it'll help. JY for 'O's everyone!!! :D Hai must start working!! :( Go go rah stop being so lazy! :(

Kay think i'll eat now my maid's like pressing me too. :) No appetite though, don't know why.

Byee.♥

Know I shouldn't be, but I just do feel it still. Why?

Privatise? Nah.

2008-07-10T18:39:00.000+08:00

Privatise? Nah. Can't be bothered to anymore. Hi there, person reading this blog. (yeah, I'm lame, kay? (: ) Go ahead and read this. Just keep any bad comments to yourself, okay? Heard that someone said something bad about me. Of course I was a little angry and upset at first. More surprised. But then, soon I was simply... too tired to be. :) Weird but these things don't phase me as much anymore.

Okay so yeah... cos of vivek viewing our blogs during lesson time (but i don't blame u, really! (:) , virtually the entire class knows we have blogs. So ya... whatever la blogs are meant to be read, right? Just thought it would be limited to some people...

Okay. Have not updated in a looong time. :( Sorry fa. Been busy. Shall summarise a bit. First thing: MT oral's OVER! :D Haha okay tt's so like outdated haha. But hey, YAY! ^^ It went relatively okay... the male teacher helped me alot. :) Thankss!

Kay and... had our class gathering at changi beach! Have got many things to write abt but am pretty lazy lah haha. =.= Had lotsa fun. :D Thanks all 20 for going ya. :) But one bad thing happened. Cbel's phone got spoilt. Poor thing. Hope it'll be okay! So ya played many games like building a sand castle and trying to get as much water as we could and cracking an egg into a spoon blah blah. And my group won! I think. Hahah. :D But my fav part was when we all got into the water and played! Some ppl were really nice, helping around and stuff. Thanks guys! :D Haha rmb vivek lost his pants or smth ahaha. Oh yeah and Haien posing as ms cheong! lol.

Kay then after went to white sands to shop with asv and bel. Quite fun lah but we all felt pretty tired by then. Bought earrings for myself and pooh haha. ;) Then just ate smth light then went back to home sweet home. :) Then, sleep! ^^

PICS! ^^

Dunno who took this pic. Candid.:) Look at sean! Haha. Still rmb runningfor the bus lol.

Lol. Lookie at pooh's puffy pants! Hahahaaa... so cool luh:D

Wowie sexy pooh lol. :D

Pooh and I. :) I really was laughing haha. FUN!

Three's not always a crowd. :)

GUESS WHO.

Mr Chan took some videos. :)

Kay then blah blah happened. Felt crappy then crazy then happy then sad then blah. Can't rmb. Nah, more like I just don't want to. :) Am tired le...

Today's bio lesson was fun. Practical! :D Finished pretty fast surprisingly. :) Mr ma dragged till like half an hour passed. But, whatever! :) I ♥ bio.

Then... smth bad happened. Dah lost her wallet! :( She was like crying la. So sad. :( Then pooh and us went to find the wallet at the bio lab. Thanks mr security guard for your help! Really really appreciate it loads.:)) Then dah was happy :D again and pooh and I crapped ard to the bus stop.:)

Okay i think that's it for now. Prolly won't be able to update regularly...

Byee.♥

for fun :)

2008-06-29T18:02:00.000+08:00

Hello people of the world! :D I'm so proud that i've been updating pretty regularly. ^^ Unlike dah who's just updated after a loooong time!

Kay. Hmm. The weekend was okay, pretty routine as usual. Watch tv, eat, sleep. LOL. Nah studied too la haha. Oh and cleared my desk and arranged the stuff!! Yay:D Now I can do my work properly... so fun.^^ lol -.-

Ytd I was in two minds about something... I realised he's been avoiding me. Not that it should be surprising or anything but now it's even more so and that's just... surprising. I've never really believed he'd hate me that much. Maybe I was wrong and even now he does. But I just don't understand why. But I didn't ask. Reason? It's just make matters worse. I'm happy as it is now. You can continue avoiding me if you want, though i'd never move aside.

Lalala. ^^ Hmm am happy with my life now la. :) Don't wanna fall back into the pit. Read some ppl's blogs and I realise many ppl faced the probs I did. We're not alone! ^^ And I'm glad things happened for I've grown so much haha. And I'm a stronger person now! :DD

Oh dear, MT oral's this thursday! =X Hope hope hope the topic's manageable! :(( Poor cy has lost her voice. Can't help but feel worried for her. Hope she gets well soon!

Wonder what we're gonna do for chem prac tmr. Hope it'll be fun! :D

Finally there's gonna be a 405 gathering on sat next week at changi beach. Pot luck. Poor mr chan was left stranded alone there last week. It was a complete fiasco okay? :( Haha. Hope this time around it'll be successful! -.- Ahaha. And heard the ex-05 gathering was a lil' of a fiasco too. Good thing I didn't go.

Okay think I'm done for today. Gonna eat my dinner now. Buh-Byee! ♥

Don't sigh because it has ended, smile because it happened.

Wee

2008-06-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

Wee hello guys.

School's started so have not been online for a few days alr. Decided to update a lil' since sean is haha. Hmm school's okay la but it's been strangely relaxing. I mean, the 'o's are drawing nearer, MT oral's next week! But still... oh well. Know things are gonna get stressful soon so might as well brace myself haha.

Kay today was an okay day I guess. SS was pretty interesting. ^^ Screwed up chem prac haha. Oh dear. Apparently did too slowly le. Oopsie. So my graph turned out weird lol. Kk then didn't get to eat lunch before bio! :'( Was so hungry la.. see le mr ma hmph. Haha. Today's lesson was weird haha. Picking beans? Lol. Things mr ma comes up with. ^^

Today mt lesson was nice cos lao shi tested me for my reading! ^^ She gave me a 7:D But it's cos i rehearsed lol. Wrote down the han yu pin yin and stuff lol. Then she even saw me frantically trying to do some last min erasing lol. How embarrassing. But she tested me on a new passage too and she said I did pretty well! :D (But it's only cos the passage is so damn simple haha) Then saw china trip pics heh.

Ytd i think someone waited just to avoid me? But then why would you go on to.. ? Nvm la. Guess these things don't matter much anymore.

Kay oh ya went to eat with kim asv and twin:) after bio. The songs playing were just great lol. We kept laughing till our sides hurt. Repeating again and again lol. Gosh.

Kay really short post right? ^^ Gotta go do stuff now. Byee!♥

SCIENCE CENTRE

2008-06-21T19:21:00.000+08:00

SCIENCE CENTRE!

Boy have I got many things to blog about! :D Okay so was supposed to have a class gathering thingie at changi beach today but for some reason no one seemed to know much about it including me so we didn't go. Think maybe there wasn't even one. Ah nvm.
On wednesday, we had a first real chem practical. *Sigh* I like screwed up for the titration calculation part.. got part (a) wrong so lost all the marks. Byebye 8m.. :'( AHh it's okay it's just a practice. Better to make this mistake now than in the 'o's right? ^^ Dah wrote the readings in pencil so she's screwed up too... but she's okay! Cos we think alike.:)

On thurs, had MT oral practice... wasn't of much help actually. Still think I'm gonna flunk mt oral. Boo. :'( I failed the one for mid yrs. Jiu ming ah!:( After that initially planned on going to the science centre but only Jiheon and us twins could go... so ended up not going. Then on the way home received a msg from him asking me if I wanted to go the next day. I was like, "heck yeah!" lol. Soo... we did! :D

Yesterday we went to the singapore science centre!^^ Took the long route there when it was right next to the jurong entertainment centre lol. But it's kay exercise is good! Haha told cy I looked like a 2-colour crayola. And cy apparently only likes to go out when it's snowing.^^ Kay so we (me, dah, cy, jiheon, sean, irish, sunmi) reached the place and the ticket is so cheap! $3 only! For children aged 1 - 16yrs lol. Toured the whole place... enjoyed myself.^^ Oh ya Haien met us all later cos he had tuition.. stayed for abt an hour only haha . :)

Here are some pics taken from cy:) (cos my phone's screwed...)

What a warm greeting at the entrance!
Hello friendly-looking creature! :D

Me, Dah, and CY!:D BFF ^^ At the dinosaur exhibits but couldn't fit that
feriocious looking thing in the pic. Aww. :(

This is HIM.:D

Fooling around hahaha. Me under jiheon's erhm. What's that hanging there?
Nano technology! Cool HEHEH :D

No you can't eat me, thank you. :D

Someone's licking us! Lol.

Wish I had more pics. :( Jiheon has the rest..

After cy, dah and I went to Jurong Entertainment Centre and ate at KFC. CY and I finally got to try the twister haha. Then, home sweet home. :) Watched some shows and a jap 'scary' movie recommended by cy.:)

Today was a pretty uneventful day. Went to clementi in the morning. Saw Yumi haha. Think she rebonded her hair or smth. Anyways, I wanted to buy some erm.. of myself, shall I say? Lol. And I faced an opposite problem from cy. The sales assistant said mine was too _ for the one I picked. And she like gestured! !!!Omg how weird is that? Lol. Cy and I at two different sides of the lever haha. Bought lunch and went home. Then bro came back and we watched Lord of the Rings, the Fellowship of the Rings. Such a great trilogy. :D

Kay think I've written enough. What a long post! :D Prolly won't update any time soon.:(

Tata! Byee! ♥

I can't expect ppl to treat me well just because I've done them. Life's not so simple. Now I know. I'm not as weak as before. I hope.

Any changes you make in yourself, do it solely for yourself and not for other people.

2nd day^^

2008-06-16T12:08:00.000+08:00

Hahaha hmm. Now let's move on to ytd, shall we? :) FATHER'S DAY! But I haven't got anything for my dad yet. :( Ya ya I know you all must be going "BOO!" and throwing eggs and rotten vegetables at me. But i seriously did not know it was father's day until very recently when cy told me! :( Nvm I'll get him a belated gift!!!

So went to vivo to eat. Whole family went including bro's gf. :) Dah didn't really eat as she had no appetite. :( Took some pics but won't post them all.

My dad and my bro :D He has grown a goatee ^^

Then.. read a book and drank (as pooh has said) while waiting for dad to finish his work. Took some pics yet again.^-^

Drinks drinks! Mogu family hahahaa. :D

Dah and me reading our books by jodi picoult ^^ lol

Then, went to grandma's house ^^

A bored me with nothing better to do in the car. ^^Hey my hair doesn't look that straight does it?^-^ My cheeks are chubby heh.

Yep, then went home and watched lotsa shows... simpsons, charlie blah blah... haha :) Used to hate channel 5 cos the shows weren't nice at all. But recently there have been nice shows added. ^-^ Then slept at 2am cos dah kept me up... she couldn't get to sleep... haha. So I accompanied her and slept only after I knew dah was about to. :)

Finally I'm done! Maybe will be going to the science centre on wed or thurs. Pretty excited:D Alright will get on to do work now. Hols are ending soon.:( After that, CHIONG! Haha.

Byee!♥

2 days of fun

2008-06-16T10:39:00.000+08:00

Hello! Been some time since I last updated, and after this prolly won't update till after the supposed science centre trip. Gotta do work! Okay so, on saturday went to east coast park for a father's day celebration for my granddad.^^ The beach was quite relaxing... :) Yay can upload some pics! ^-^

:) Okay okay... for some reason, I like the osmonds! Yes... the osmonds. Haha.^-^ I know they're an old band and everything... my mum used to idolise them! Haha... The young donny is so cute okay? Ahaha. They wrote their own songs and everything kay... hahaha. They started out to save money for hearing aids for their older bros. Sweet right? Haha okay you guys must be like "erhmm... uhuh..." But who cares :P My fav song is "love me for a reason" ^-^ Now fa, you know the significance. Nothing fishy! Haha. This fa thinks too much.:) Mum wanted to go watch but the tickets are too ex. :( Okay don't know why I like old songs all of a sudden. "Goodbye" by air supply's a nice song too. Haha. They're having a concert too.

Okay shall continue on my next post or things'll be screwed up...

Fun friends frenzy:)

2008-06-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

FFF. Ahaha.:) So, went to pooh's house today:P (as you all probably already know^^) For the first time ever, Dah and I were the first to come! Then came HF, cy and THEN cbel, after more than an hour! -.- BeLbEL~ Haha. We played at the playground while waiting... Haha. We even raped HF! Lol. Kay then went up and ate lunch... yum:) including hf's fav sausages *ahem* ^-^ Then watched tv, played cluedo where i won 1 game, adding to my winning streak^^ and dah won 2. So, in all the rounds we've played so far, I won ALL 'cept for the 2 dah won! Hee.:D Sorry pooh looks like you'll have to try next time. :) Hmm then we played a lil' on the com... neopets! Hahah didn't know what else to do:) Pooh didn't have any horror movie for us! :( Were all quite disappointed:( It's kay hope there's a next time. So sad can't upload an pics. :(

Hmm wonder when we can ever find time for a visit to the science centre. Hope I'll be able to upload pics then! School's starting in a little more than a week's time boo. :( Still have yet to do any heymath crap. :( And the darn physics worksheet! And the SS ws! HAI. Okay ya I'm so pathetic I know. Whatever I'll try to do work the next three days. :) Hope I won't get distracted by the tv or the com!:(

Oh ya, wanna get a psp!!! Then can get games from my bro and play with him!! :D 2 players wee! Haha. Pooh has a pink one but has no games to play on it zz haha. Okay wait maybe I should wait till after the 'o's? Now's not really a good time to play new games and stuff. Afraid I'll get addicted. =X Hmm but I really need a new phone! I'm currently using a really old phone but can't be bothered to get a new one. Dad said he'd get a nice one for me after the 'o's. HAI. Haha. That's why I can't wait till it's over. :) Many things to do after that yay. :D

Heard many ppl are applying to JCs through the DSA. Like, what! What's the use of joining a UG! ZZ! Hai all the talk about getting privileges through joining... -.- Ahh nvm, won't wanna apply through DSA anyway... just gotta work hard. Meritocracy stands the strongest.:D

Okay my arms are hurting for some reason. Think I'll end here.

Life's more carefree and joyous now... with_ _.

Been busy^^

2008-06-11T10:09:00.000+08:00

Hey guys sorry for being MIA these few days. :) Went out ytd with my relatives to watch kungfu panda! :D Some parts were really funny and po was so chubby and fat! Hee. But the show was a tad bit too short for my liking... Plus, there was not sufficient characterisation of the characters, especially the furious 5 (they're called that, right?) Haha I sound like a critic. Okok but the show was still great so you guys should catch it! ^-^ Actually i get pleased easily (no, really:D). Only movies i hate are boring "horror" movies (like THE EYE starring Jessica Alba). Worst horror movie ever don't ever catch it. *Sigh* brings back memories though... nvm.

Okay so I really do hope pooh's horror movie is good! :) Yay tmr we'll be going to pooh's house:) Hope we'll have loads of fun! Hmm sorry I really didn't know what to get for you guys!! :( Maybe some other time yeah? And cy nvm it's okay i don't wanna know who it is le. :) But I'll listen to anything you guys need to say out! Kay? :)

Aww too bad was out ytd and missed some nice shows. But watched Samantha Who hahaha it's a damn funny show:) Wonder what kind of person I'll be if I lose my memory.

Oh yeah! Dreams dreams dreams... I had plenty of them recently and I don't know why! Got some usual ones blah blah *sigh* :( Still don't understand why I still get them. But then there were interesting dreams. I dreamt of FA! ^-^ I dreamt she came back to singapore! But then when she saw me she seemied nonchalant.:( Haha. But then again, people say dreams are the opposite of reality right? Just like how Asveeny ended up with Yagesh lol. So that means Fa would be delighted to see me! ^-^v I would be delighted too, Fa. ;) Lol. Hope the dream becomes reality and Fa will come back to see us some day. :)

Okay do hope we'll take lots of pics tmr so I can post them on the blog and show Fa:) She hasn't seen me or us for a long time alr and I have changed quite a bit since... So hope we can take lots and lots of pics! :D Hmm cbel has been like so detached from us. Don't even know if she's going tmr. :( Hope so! Where are you bel!!! Zzz.

Wanna shop shop shop for more clothes and shoes and accessories and stuff:( Wanna go to the polyclinic:( Wanna visit the science centre:( Wanna go to the omnitheatre:( Wanna go to sentosa:(

Byee!♥

Straight hair!

2008-06-07T08:42:00.000+08:00

STRAIGHT HAIR.

Went to malaysia... blah blah blah... straight hair! :)

Ytd dunno what was wrong with me at night suddenly had pms? actually it is coming so... but very quickly I became okay! :D Sorry dada for whining like a (cute) baby. :( Heehee.

Okay ytd funny and weird things happened... like dah said, i walked across a restaurant with cream on my hair! cos the water in my salon died out! Like WTH right? =.= Haha pretty funny. Ok oh ya... omw there, something unbelievable happened. This guy in a van winked at me! ERM. Like I never got that before okay... why me... zz? Kay ya so it was pretty cool that I got to use the com there... dada didn't! Poor thing:( But ya got bored after awhile. My hairdresser was a cute guy! Haha. But he didn't speak good english. Haha. Half of the time I couldn't seem to comprehend what he was saying. Argh how frustrating! He literally said the same question 3 times over and i was like... "HUH?" Great going rah. *Smacks head* Hahah okok whatever... The trip to and from there was looong... but fun! Thanks to the entertainment of dada and me! :D And haha the farting car as dah said. Haha... noisy engine *vroom vroom* but the horsepower is like shit. Oops! o.o! Hee. And the funny thing was my mum was like cursing and complaining and stuff when she was on her way to religious class! LOL. Oh the irony. :D But she didn't go in the end la... said that by the time she reached there they'd be saying the prayer before eating HAHA. Okay and... you guys might pelt eggs at me but nvm, I shall still admit - I didn't buy anything for you guys! *Dodges eggies* So sorry okay it was really late by the time I was done so dad and mum wanted to go. :( Kk nth much nice there anyway so will try to find smth in s'pore okie? :D

Okayy I think I'm done talking about ytd...:) Wee wonder what pooh has in store for us. :)

Could it be you? If so, why? Can't u cut me some slack? Anyways, I'm too tired out emotionally to think anymore. Emotionally drained... But I'm not as weak as before. Give me all you've got baby.

Friends are fun, solitude can be nice too though!:)

2008-06-05T15:59:00.000+08:00

Yay last day!:D

Today A math was okay- lasted for slightly more than one hour only. But best of all, I came on time! :D Met Ji heon on my way to school. Don't know why he still said I was late. -.- Mrs toh was late. :) Don't know why the rest of the class seemed so enthusiastic about math. They stayed on even after we were allowed to leave. Yeah so cy cbel asv dah and I just left while hf stayed back to maybe challenge shao wei in seeing who could do the hw faster? Haha. Math-lovers... Far from my reach.

Ya so then cy asv dah and I went to mac to have breakfast... cbel had lit seminar. Wonder what they do... hist's got nothing. Lol. Saw many cute babies for some reason! Haha. Ate, chatted, then did a math:) Had a good time with u guys today heheh.:) Simple but meaningful. Then it rained and it felt so peaceful and serene.:) Went home alone as I plugged in my mp3.:) Dah went out to do something.

Oh ya! Suddenly remembered! 961 was pretty shaky and unstable, so when i was trying to alight the bus, I lost balance(though my cg is low heheh -.-) and fell on a guy! As in, I came face to... well maybe not face cos i'm too short -.- but ya... Omg i was flushing okay.. then just muttered a "sorry" and got down the bus as fast as I could. Haha but the guy was quite cute la haha. !!And oh ya also saw a bunch of hwa chong guys and two RI guys in the nokia bus. The RI guys were quite cute lol but the HC guys were plain rowdy. -.- Okay I shall stop now hahaa:) Hmm oh ya cy seems to be smitten by not a kitten -.-but by her trainee optometrist! Haha.

Okay so wanna visit the science centre. Anyone wanna join me? Anyone?? :)) And just can't wait to go to pooh's (play)house! Teeheehee... Hai have got to wear my retainers more often the dentist said there're a few slight gaps between my teeth. Gotta go back in 6 month's time. Gosh the 'O's would be over by then... :) Anyway, have deided to meet steph after the 'o's. Think that would be better:) Real sweet of her to want to treat us!:) Kay shall go and check out pooh's blog now... maybe play some games too. Will do work later and read my book! :D Kay then, byee.♥

Happy b'day, Hai en! And guys go see my post on shared blog if you haven't. :) Music makes the world go round♫♪~ "To zanarkand", "zanarkand ruins", "servants of the mountain"... beautiful:)) Final fantasy wee~:)

Gosh can't I ever be punctual?

2008-06-04T13:47:00.000+08:00

Just added a cbox. :) Wowee. As you can guess, I was late again for school - a whole half an hour. Like wth! I woke up on time, didn't oversleep. Problem started when poor sis had diarrhoea and then, as if not bad enough, had vomiting sensations! Poor thing:( Yeah and to top it off, the frickin' bus drove past us cos it was too 'full'! Like, ever heard of squeezing? I'm sure more ppl could fit in. Guys watch this it's like really cool:) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwVeORvtkb0 You'll see what I mean. :)

Okay am posting now cos I have dental later and cos I'm just plain bored. Will need to do math later. :'( Gosh I didn't know you guys have done e math alr! Boohoo.:( Okay so today's lessons were really BORING compared to bio lessons. Bio lessons rock the most kay? Period. Even 1 hr of SS was painfully boring. No, it's not because of miss tan's teaching (btw poor ms tan has got a bruise through banging on a wall poor thing:(). I just felt really sleepy and you gotta admit, going through the SBQ and SEQ skills can get a lil' monotonous. No, it's not because they're at my fingertips. It's just that she's gone through it many times alr. Yeah so ended up sitting with felix... Told him I've been slacking and he told me my definition of slacking is not the same as his zz. Nah I'm sure they're pretty close. :) *sigh* :( Okay gotta kick myself and start working already! Poor sweetpeacp would be neglected though. :(

OH YA OH YA before I forget(like i conveniently did ytd -.-) I dreamt of something COOL ytd. Okay so it doesn't really fit in to reality perfectly but what I dreamt was... I was on a beach with many ppl (though I can't pinpoint who exactly). Then, I walked to this round table with Janine, Abi, Asveeny and Yagesh! (Okay yeah I know it's like really random but dreams are like that, aren't they?) AND, Yagesh and Asveeny(aka pooh:P) were talking sweet nothings to each other! Lol. Then when I teased them, pooh chased me! That was when I woke up, laughing! Yes, in real life! Omg okay? So weirdd haha. Then I felt quite disappointed cos I thought I couldn't re-enter that dream:( BUT then, I drifted off to sleep again and guess what? I dreamt again but this time, I dreamt of him. Like, wth right? Shouldn't I like be over him by now? Then, I understood the saying that sometimes, your mind tells you you are in one particular state, but your heart tells you otherwise. But it's okay, I'm not affected by it. Though I know it's still there, however deep and vaguely etched within, it won't run me down, and that's most important. I'm happier these days and that's what matters. Pooh is so darn excited to see what i have in store for her. Sorry la I couldn't make yagesh transform into hong fai or shao wei... or vivek even! Haha... this polygamous pooh. Wonder who's in her heart really. Maybe all of them? Waah. *tsktsk* :P Wee pooh's making her own blog now heheh. Can't wait to check it out. Okay think I'll stop here for today. Wee have been updating regularly. Not bad, huh? Just hope this continues... Byee.♥

Wee one more day! And oh ya paragraphing thanks to Jiheon :)

I had fun today thanks mum:)

2008-06-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

Tears are rolling down my cheeks at this moment... first time in quite some time. I thought I'd healed. Well, perhaps people never heal fully, do they. Nah, I should say no one can stay happy around the clock. I was relaxed - right up till you told me to be. Then I blew. How much can one take? Heard of limits? Breaking point? For so long and constantly have I been trying to be tolerant. Heck I even told myself to be a dumb, ignorant ASSHOLE. How can such a slight expression of my deep-seeded emotions be deemed as "unrelaxed"? God I could have been nastier. *sigh* whatever I'm going back to being a DIA again. :) Damn feel like vomiting suddenly *cups mouth*.

Okay whatever today was a good day.:) Went to meet mummy, aunts, cousins and grandparents for lunch at jurong. A single roung table hosting us. Heheh. Then went to watch Indiana jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull with mum and dah! :) At first, I have to admit it was pretty boring and I couldn't make head or tail of what was going on. But soon enough, the usual action, as with the prequels, begun! Some parts were really cool. :)) You guys should watch it with your parents if you haven't catched it. It's a good film,trust me! ;) Even met a few fellow schoolmates. Ex-02 gang were there but like whatever not like I know any of them. Yup then went to buy some bodycare stuff:D Wee gonna rebond my hair on fridayy. Yeah yeah I know I've said it many times haven't I. Gosh my unkempt hair today strengthened my convictions to do it. GOD STOP BEing SO SELFISH. Okay an impromptu comment forgive me. Okay okay FINE I'm done posting for today.

:) WEE!

...

Byee.❤

Nvm it's okay I won't get mad.:) I know how it feels to be on the receiving end. Just hope you can care more about how I'd feel kay?

Bio lessons are so cool!:)

2008-06-02T15:11:00.000+08:00

My second post! Yay. :) Okay so today I was late for bio, even though i like woke up earlier than other ppl zz. I woke up at about 7 and read my book. It's starting to get more interesting and understandable. Yay finally:) Ya so I was like more than 15 minutes late? Haha.. so slack. Blame it on the bus. Out of all days to pick being late, picked today. =.= And that dah, such an LP (lazy pig). Only woke up when sw called. Sleepyhead! Hmm.. what if I had my files? Then what... oh well. So ya pretty weird.. saw sw at the bus-stop... so zun? but ya.. nvm. lol but ya, but ya...

AND ya anyways, Mr Ma surprisingly didn't really punish us! :D Lessons today was uber fun! (though i was made to stand for a while haha) Hmm sean supposedly came late too as he had diarrhoea haha. Poor sean:( So yep today mr ma went through a little more about inheritance and stuff. Learnt about MUTATION! Yep~ :) Learnt about many superheroes haha. So fun. Mark Hay likes to watch powerpuff girls! Haha... Oh ya and mr ma was treating us like children! He kept saying things like "understand, children?" and we were like, "YESSS!~~" Haha. Mama's sooo cute. :) He was in such a good mood today. Thank god.:) So ya learnt about chromosome and gene mutation. Cool! Do you guys know that there's this condition where a male has one extra X chromosome and a female, one less? Cool huh? But of course, unfortunate! Omg imagine a guy with big breasts and wide hips and female-patterned pubic hair. Oh wait shit. Don't. Sorry... haha. :P

Simply, BIO ROCKS! :D

Hmm so ya today was so much fun. BUT! Went to mac after with cy, cbel, hf and dah and guess what happened? The power was like screwed up! The lights kept going on and off, and the worst part- we had to wait ages before we could order! We were all like really hungry by then... what luck, huh? =.= Hmm wonder if cy still wants to go for foundational studies if we don't. It's really expensive, okay? 25k for a year? Now that's what I call expensive. But I do hope I can get into a good JC!! Sighs stupid guides can't help me to apply through DSA. What a waste! OMG. I was like about to type that and the weird man from the TV said it!!!! In a super weirdd but funny way! Insane! :D Hmm.. dah's doing math now I think I shall let her use the com and I can do math. ;) Then I'll read my book!! Then maybe later I'll call pooh, since she asked me to. :) Y.A.Y think I'm gonna rebond my hair on friday! But I think I'll trim it a lil' shorter and then rebond. That way, I won't have exactly the same hairstyle (apart from my fringe) as my twin sis! :) Smart eh? Hope people will finally be able to tell us apart then. =.= Isn't it so obvious now, still? I mean we look quite different for twins. Okay think I'll go do my math now. Gosh is everyone else mugging right now? Cos I've been like slacking these days... That's why I'm gonna do work now. Pooh said she's finished math! Wow. Welcome to the math lovers club. Lol. Okie then going off now bye!❤

Melb... Sg... Melb... Sg... Ahh! :(

My first post :)

2008-06-01T21:40:00.000+08:00

Yay it's my first post! :) Now, I've got my personal blog, aside from my shared one with my wonderful friends. :)

So, today was another relaxing day... Started with a usual 'weekend morning'. :) Then after eating the usual fried noodles for lunch, watched the superhero movie. Well, there were some pretty (okay, damn) funny parts. Haha. But disturbing, if I may say so. Haha... ahem. Watch it and you'll get what I mean. H2O9! LOL! But ya the show on the whole was pretty predictable (duh) and not really interesting. Okay, I shall stop being a critic. :D Okay so after that, I watched "I propose". It was like really sweet and everything. The guy may not look handsome, but he sure is one SWEET guy. How nice it would be if my proposal were anything near as romantic. Haha... Inner beauty's what counts, don't you agree?? :)) Oh yeah I know it's pretty random but I'm really excited for the olympic games! I just love to watch "Beijing dreams"!

Hmm okayy after, went to grandma's house for awhile, then went to eat dinner (chicken rice :)) Then went to times bookshop with dad and sis and bought books! Yay I got a pretty interesting looking book. It's called "the memory keeper's daughter". Dah got another one of Jodi Picoult's books. :) Dad got many self-help books... including one for dads? Financial stuff bla bla.. Haha. Yay for daddy! There was a 30% discount for members so dad was like on a shopping spree la haha.:) He gets 'high' around books lol. Think I'll finish reading "second glance" first, though. Dah says it's really nicee! :))

Well, there'll be bio lessons tmr. Two and a half hours of it. =.= Oh damn have not done the assignment yet hope it's not due tmr. Ah what the heck, think I'll go do it soon. Hope we eventually get to go to the science centre! Ma, I wanna go! Haven't gone in like ages! Yay have changed the blogskin for the joint blog finally. :) Pooh and cy like it. Phew. :P Okay, I think I'll go do my bio now. Oh ya anyways I can't stand that you keep giving me the cold.. shall not continue. :) Byee.♥